a short one

it's quite a shame i kept silent for so long, but either felt like time passed too fast to grab it and put in words or like too many things invested my head, all top priority and made it quite impossible to find a spare second. the holiday break (took 3 free days from work before the new year's day) was what i totally needed, deserved, craved for. aparat from one day when i had to finish my thesis for post-grad studies, i spent that time idly in superwarm atmosphere with my family. then kamil came back and we would still just do nothing, do shopping or go to a hairdresser together. this made me a short-haired brunette, first time in some 20 years, quite an experience, but i love it. i feel like my face is much more mine, more distinct, maybe even more cartoonesque, but definitely fresher. my father and my brother acted all funny, pretending to be devastated by it, but apart from them noone was that brave to tell me it wasn't the best idea... ;) for the new year's eve we went with a great bunch of friends to kamil's summer house - some fabulous 3 days, definitely worth repeating.

but then, after i came back to work, i just couldn't get down to it properly, or to anything really. i just knew i hate my client, need more sleep and desperately crave for cold winter with blindening sun instead of those grey semi-nights and disgusting, mild temperatures. i just felt like i'm about to start decaying. since it couldn't have been pms, after a week i decided to help myself with deprim. winter blues without winter. after four days it already looks like st john's wort was a good choice. now i only need a miracle to get me through sunday closing exams at post-grad studies. i hope this weekend the sun will shine on. and if not, i may try helping it with thoughts of holiday in tuscany and rome - oh, how i already love it...

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